Reality

Reality.
Illusions.
Are you living now.
As in are you living the way you want now.
Are you being who you are now.
Are you happy.
Are you satisfied.
No?
Yes?
Most people answer would be a no.
I'll come to that later.

Why aint you happy.
No money?
Cant get the person you love?
Cant realise your dream?
So many reasons.
Lets talk about need and want.
What is your want and what is your need.
Which will make you happy.
People always got confused between this.
There is a major difference between need VS want.
and ability VS desire.
Know your stand.
I can tell you this.
Even if you're happy.
How long you think your happiness can last.
Not for long isn't it.
Why is that so?
Simple.
Human desire never ends.
Interestingly.
We are the one we gave ourselves trouble.
How to be happy?
Figure that out yourself.

But know this fact.
No one is happy.
No one will.
For this is a fact that human desire never end, never stop.

So if you're someone who keep pondering what is happiness.
Why arent i happy.
Why are others so happy.
Why i cant be like them.
I can tell you this.
What you see is just their external facade.
Who knows if they are really happy inside.
So before you sink into your own oblivion.
Think twice or perhaps thrice.
If you think you're having the worse life here.
Think again.
If you think you're the most unhappy person.
Think again.
If you think you're most lonely person around.
Think again.
Once again.
Its your life.
Its your choice.
Period.

Another story to share.
Pretty similar to the grass story but more complicated.
Here theres a class taking their test results.
They were very unhappy and a teacher overheard their conversation.
They were saying things like.
"if only i studied that topic."
"If only i studied harder."
Thus the teacher decided on something.
To bring them to a apple farm.
*i choose apple coz i like apple lol*

So here was the teacher and the class.
The teacher said.
We will walk across this apple farm.
Each one of you are required to pick an apple.
But only one.
And you cant throw away once you picked it.
So at the end of the day.
All the student were at the end of the field with an apple in their hand.
So the teacher asked.
Is everyone satisfied with the apple in their hand.
Most said no.
The teacher asked why.
*PS:Heres the important part.*
Some said.
"After i picked my apple, i saw better ones infront."
"After picking my apple, i realise the better ones are at the start and i walked pass them already."
"If only i knew the better ones are at there, i would have waited or taken them, not missing the chance."

What am i trying to say.
I'm trying to say is.
Reality is harsh.
The apples are the choices we make.
The field is the path we walk.
And we cant turn back time nor take back our words.
Its our decision and we have to responsible for it.
Whats the point of thinking 'if only'.
If there were so many 'if only',
the world would be perfect.
sadly thats not reality, thats everyone's fantasy.
yes we do regrets our decision made.
we all make mistakes.
but should one probing and sink into their world of 'if only',
or learn their mistakes and move on.
Its your life.
Its your choice.
Period.

PS:
Fuck it.
Things dont seem to go as i planned.
Fuck it really.
Seems like i need to take further measures.
Anyway guys check this out.
i sent this to my careperson.
Everyone's gotta do it.
This is my art piece.
(:
Right click and save it.
HERE

A decade under the Influence by Taking Back Sunday
Sad, small, sweet, so delicate
We used to be this dying breed
I got a bad feeling about this
I got a bad feeling about this

You kept still until the long drive home
You slept safe and close to the window...
I got a bad feeling about this
I got a bad feeling about...

Who's to say you'll have to go (I could go all night)
Well say you'll have to go (I could go all...)
To hell with you and all your friends
To hell with you and all your friends, it's on

Sad, small, sure in porcelain
You're skin and bones, I'm a nervous wreck
I got a bad feeling about this (when it comes to this)
I got a bad feeling about this

You kept still until the long drive home
You slept safe and close to the window
I got a bad feeling about this
I got a bad feeling about...

Who's to say you'll have to go (I could go all night)
Well say you'll have to go (I could go all...)
To hell with you and all your friends
To hell with you and all your friends, it's on

I got a bad feeling about this (what is this for?)
I got a bad feeling about...

Anyone will do tonight
Anyone will do tonight
Close your eyes, just settle, settle
Close your eyes, just settle, settle
Anyone will do tonight
Anyone will do tonight
Close your eyes, just settle, settle
Close your eyes, just settle, settle
Anyone (anyone) will do tonight
Anyone (anyone) will do tonight
Close your eyes, just settle, settle
Close your eyes, just settle, settle

Well I got a bad feeling about this,
I got a bad feeling about this (to hell with you and all your friends, it's on).
I'm coming over but it never was enough
I thought it through and my worst brings out the best in you
Well I got a bad feeling about this
I got a bad feeling about this (to hell with you and all your friends, it's on)
I'm coming over but it never was enough
I thought it through and my worst brings out the best in you
Well I got a bad feeling about this
I got a bad feeling about this (to hell with you and all your friends, it's on)
I'm coming over but it never was enough,
I thought it through and my worst brings out the best in you
Well I got a bad feeling about this,
I got a bad feeling about this (in you...).
I'm coming over but it never was enough,
I thought it through and my worst brings out the best in you
I got a bad feeling about this,
I got a bad feeling about this (in you...).
I'm coming over but it never was enough
I thought it through and my worst brings out the best in you
I got a bad feeling about this,
I got a bad feeling about this,
I got a bad feeling about this (I am you)
I got a bad feeling about this (I am you)
I got a bad feeling about this (I am you)
I got a bad feeling about this (I am you)
I got it bad (I am you)
I got it bad
I got it bad
I got it bad
I got it bad
I got it bad