Change: Me

Environment change.
People adapt.
I adapt.
Time flies.
People grow.
I grow.
I age.
I die.
The cycle.
Peer.
Environment.
Not missing out the most important component.
Time.
The ingredients for change.

Perhaps.
I've change.
No idea.
But for what i know.
I dont.
I would argue.
This is my inner self.
Someone who has been sleeping for ages.
Comparing me.
Who have lose motivation to live.
Those are people stuck with things they cant let go.
But for me.
Nothing is holding me back.
Nothing.
And someone out there struggling to live.
How childish.
Why not compare yourself with the natives.
Eat tree barks and stuff.
Pitiful comments.
I sympathise.
Trying hard to escape death.
Such futile actions.
Effortless tries.
How pathetic.
Stupid you might call me.
I wouldn't care.
For i know it myself i am not.

I used to portray myself.
As someone.
Who is simple.
Ra-ra type.
But who dares claim.
To claim to know me.
Well and inside out.
Who dare.
I doubt there is any.
For i know i am far more complicated that your brain can ever comprehand.
All the thoughts running across my head.
All the things i perceive differently.
Who knows what i'm thinking.
Who knows what i know.
No one does.
When i'm out.
I'm normal.
When i'm alone.
I'm like another being.
Something which shed its skin and reborn.
Someone who is living by the harshest reality possible.
Someone who has attain a new level of realization of life and death.
Split personality perhaps.
No idea.
Scary huh.
Special perhaps.
So don't doubt my actions.
Regret is something i wouldn't know.
Don't bother teaching me.
For i will not learn.
Fear me.
Detest me.
Hate me.
Forsake me.
For i'm the fallen one myself.
But mark my words.
No matter what has become of me.
I will not be a burden to anyone.
Period.