Personal

Extended and re-updated on 27/05.
Apologise.
Ytd was getting late to updated a lil.
I'll finish up what i've got to say today.
So yup.


Alright.
Something personal again.
Received couples of comments today regarding i've become more vulgar.
Rather then changed to be more vulgar.
I would say reckless.
I couldn't be bothered about what others think of me now.
For i cant see whats the purpose of having a good impression.
Been thinking about it.
I seriously think.
My mindset have swayed from before.
I seriously.
Cannot be bothered about anything now.
From insulting lecturers to disrespecting course manager.
I seriously think that i am reckless.
I did think about the consequences.
But it doesn't seem to bother me a single bit.
Its like, 'so what?' situation.
I don't care.
So what if i got kicked out of school.
So what if everyone hates me.
So what if i got myself in deep shit.
So what?
I don't know what gotten into me.
Or what cause this thinking.
But i know its stuck into my head now.
Consequences.
I couldn't care.
Results.
I don't bother.
I've changed.
I know it now.
I did.
Who am i now i wonder to myself.
What am i now i am figuring out.
I don't know.
Hay wired.
Twisted up i guess.
He guessed he's dead.
I wonder too.
He wonder too.

Well well.
So i guess cheng's dead.
Kind of in some sense.
perhaps.
man i seriously wonder.
Whats gonna be of me now.
I cant determine whats wrong.
But for one thing i'm sure.
I've changed.
Better or worse.
No idea.
Cant be bothered too.

Well well.
Next week will be my last week at Genki.
Had a tiff with the fucking gay manager.
A loser who cant outtalk me.
What a loser.
Pitiful.
Von said something about respecting.
Well i did.
If i didn't respect him.
I would've used vulgar and shoot him directly.
In stead of insulting him indirectly.
This would be the level i give to someone who is elder then me.
The minimal respect.
Respect is not given.
Its earned.
Being old doesn't mean people have to respect you.
Loser.
And since i've decided to 'toy' him.
Now i will.
Once and for all.
Next thurs he'll be doing closing.
Of which i'm working.
And i'm not going to turn up.
I'll screw him up utterly.
I'll make him suffer.
I apologise if i made any other servers unhappy.
For i've decided to fuck richies upside down.
I'm gonna make him regret.
And thinking about it.
Me and my brother will be quitting next week.
So i'm gonna see how he plan his schedule.
Wasting a food runner.
Left with YQ.
And Benny who at weekend still cmi.
So when theres a weekend where both yq and ben off.
Genki's dead.
For sure i vouch for it.
Loser.
A loser who lost himself at the peak of anger he is.
I'll make him learn his lesson the tough way.
Trust me.
I'm capable of doing so.
And here i'm thinking.
Since thurs i'm not going to turn up for work.
Should i go there and be a customer.
So screw him up.
Well well well.
I wonder.
I'll come to a decision soon.
But i need company ya.
So let the project 'screw richie' start.
His suffering would be my pleasure.
His felony.
My melody.
So be it.

Song for post.
Only One by Yellowcard.
Broken this fragile thing now
And I can't, I can't pick up the pieces
And I've thrown my words all around
But I can't, I can't give you a reason

I feel so broken up (so broken up)
And I give up (I give up)
I just want to tell you so you know

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one that gets me like you do
You are my only, my only one

Made my mistakes, let you down
And I can't, I can't hold on for too long
Ran my whole life in the ground
And I can't, I can't get up when you're gone

And something's breaking up (breaking up)
I feel like giving up (like giving up)
I won't walk out until you know

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one who gets me like you do
You are my only, my only one

Here I go so dishonestly
Leave a note for you my only one
And I know you can see right through me
So let me go and you will find someone

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one, no one like you
You are my only, my only one
My only one
My only one
My only one
You are my only, my only one