The last post

i'm abandoning this blog alr.
dont ask me why or what.
kind of pointless to blog eh.
i can no longer figure out this blog's purpose alr.
so well.
(:

"Vacation"
Written by me.
In the world where light is dim.
The portrait i seek cant be seen.

As the leaf got blown away.
As the water flow, the face cleanse.
The shadow stared in dismay.
Loneliness sets in, the paralzed sense.

Leaving no dirt and tears.
Its all written all over the face.
It traced back the fear.
So fast so sleek, losing the pace.

Its all done now.
Going for a vacation.
Its all gone now.
There goes his anticipation.
Its about time now my girl.
I'm weak, the love i cant suppress.
I should go now Princess.
The oblivion is calling out for my presence.

The the solitude where my heart you bind.
Your green i love i cant find.

With the flame i cant ignite.
Tears they fall i cant defy.
Alone am i straded without your light.
If time could turn, i would hold you tight.

With the music hold your scent behind.
Emotions they stir with my headphone on.
Another moment wasted in the lonely night.
Drown in thoughts with your favourite song.

Its all done now.
Going for a vacation.
Its all gone now.
There goes his anticipation.
Its about time now my girl.
I'm weak, the love i cant suppress.
I should go now Princess.
The oblivion is calling out for my presence.

I cant hear.
I cant see.
I cant feel.
There i go undiscovered.
On my vacation.
This is the song i wrote for you.
Its you and only you.


Song dedicated for myself.
Drinking for 11 by Mad Caddies.
drinking for a livin', that's just what I do,
When I'm not with you, my heart goes to bed

End of the bar, that's just where I'll be,
Don't try and come find me,
'Cause I'm already dead

With one eye tied upon the open road,
I feel your presence and I can't let it go
It moves so slowly as it creeps into my mind,
Steals every breath I have and leaves my heart behind

I wanna know what you're feeling if you're feeling alone,
I wanna hear if you still care
The last time I remember you was the last time I wasn't scared

When the night starts fadin' and the mornin' arrives,
I wanna still feel you around
Will you creep into my head again and pick me up off the ground?
Once more, tell me what you're fighting for

Gotta try, gotta try for tomorrow
you can't see through today
Gotta try, gotta try for tomorrow
you can't see through today
There's nowhere left to stay

Sometimes I feel like I'm out here all alone,
Just one in a million stuck with no place left to go

Fear steps up to me with every move that I make
Following close behind my soul it wants to take

I wanna know what you're feeling if you're feeling alone,
I wanna hear if you still care
The last time I remember you was the last time I wasn't scared

When the night starts fadin' and the mornin' arrives
I wanna still feel you around
Will you creep into my head again and pick me up off the ground?
Once more, tell me what you're fighting for

Gotta try, gotta try for tomorrow
you can't see through today
Gotta try, gotta try for tomorrow
you can't see through today
There's nowhere left to stay

Drinking for a livin', that's just what I do,
When I'm not with you, my heart goes to bed.

Song dedicated for the past.
Beautiful Soul by Jesse McCartney.
I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
You're the one I wanna chase
You're the one I wanna hold
I wont let another minute go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul

I know that you are something special
To you I'd be always faithful
I want to be what you always needed
Then I hope you'll see the heart in me

I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
You're the one I wanna chase
You're the one I wanna hold
I wont let another minute go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul

Your beautiful soul, yeah
You might need time to think it over
But im just fine moving forward
I'll ease your mind
If you give me the chance
I will never make you cry c`mon lets try

I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
You're the one I wanna chase
You're the one I wanna hold
I wont let another minute go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul

Am I crazy for wanting you
Baby do you think you could want me too
I don't wanna waste your time
Do you see things the way I do
I just wanna know if you feel it too
There is nothing left to hide

I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
You're the one I wanna chase
You're the one I wanna hold
I wont let another minute go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul

You beautiful soul, yeah

Song dedicated for now.
Scar by Papa Roach.
I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And my scars remind me that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

Drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
I'm pissed cause you came around
Why don't you just go home
Cause you channel all your pain
And I can't help you fix yourself
You're making me insane
All I can say is

[Chorus:]
I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And our scars remind us that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

I tried to help you once
Against my own advice
I saw you going down
But you never realized
That you're drowning in the water
So I offered you my hand
Compassions in my nature
Tonight is our last stand

[Chorus]

I'm drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
You shouldn't ever come around
Why don't you just go home?
Cause you're drowning in the water
And I tried to grab your hand
And I left my heart open
But you didn't understand
But you didn't understand
Go fix yourself

I can't help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life
I can't help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life

[Chorus x2]

Song dedicated for everything.
The Last Song by The All American Rejects.
This may be the last thing that I write for long
Can you hear me smiling when I sing this song?
For you and only you

As I leave will you be someone to say good-bye?
As I leave will you be someone to wipe your eye?
My foot is out the door and you can't stop me now

You wanted the best
It wasn't me
Will you give it back?
Now I'll take the lead
When there's no more room to make it grow
I'll see you again
You'll pretend you're naive
Is this what you want?
Is this what you need?
How you end up? Let me know

As I go remember all the simple things you know
My mind is just a crutch and I still hope
That you will miss me when I'm gone
This is the last song

The hearts start breaking as the year is gone
The dream's beginning and the time rolls on
It seems so surreal
And now I sing it
Somehow I knew that it would be this way
Somehow I knew that it would slowly fade
Now I am gone
Just try and stop me now

You wanted the best
It wasn't me
Will you give it back?
Now I'll take the lead
When there's no more room to make it grow
I'll see you again
You'll pretend you're naive
Is this what you want?
Is this what you need?
How you end up? Let me know

As I go remember all the simple things you know
My mind is just a crutch and I still hope
That you will miss me when I'm gone
This is the last song

Will you need me now
You'll find a way somehow
You wanted to
I want it too

As I go remember all the simple things you know
My mind is just a crutch and I still hope
That you will miss me when I'm gone
This is the last song

As I go remember all the simple things you know
My mind is just a crutch and I still hope
That you will miss me when I'm gone
This is the last song

Weakness

well.
no one is perfect.
each of us has our own flaws and weaknesses.
its about how we overcome it.
how we hide it.
how we remove it.
the road we live.
we grow as we do.
we learn as we do.
people blame themselves for certain mistakes.
its okay.
but dont get drowned.
whether you live or die.
its stuck into you.
you gotta live with them somehow.
am i right or am i wrong.

I too have weaknesses.
Over-confident.
i think too highly of myself.
i boast, brag and is arrogant.
i believe in myself too much.
so much that i kind of hate it to depend on others.

Stubborn.
yes i'm strong headed.
even if i'm weak, worn out.
i wont give in.
i'll figure something out myself.
i wont be a burden to others.

Foolish.
i'm always doing things that defy others.
especially the high authorities.
perhaps its something i do to enjoy.

Curious.
Yes its okay to be curious.
but i think i'm over the limits.
i dont learn until i got bitten.
sometimes i dont learn even after getting bitten.
thats why i always have to learn things the hard way.

Reserved.
Depending on the matters at hand.
i tend to be too reserved for emotional stuffs.
the tendency to keep everything to myself.

they say.
i'm the happiest person they ever known.
i say.
its not easy being me.

she say.
saying everything in one day wont be fun.
i think.
its more that you have nothing else to say.

she say.
you're too young to die.
i say.
life is unpredictable.
for i will. soon enough.

Evanescence - My Immortal
I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

[Chorus:]
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me

You used to captivate me
By your resonating light
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

[Chorus]

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along

[Chorus]

Impossible

practically actually everything is possible.
its how you work things out.
if you have the right ingredients, the right time.
anything is possible.
even a perfect muder.
or a forever young body.

but theres one little thing is not possible i think.
is to penetrate a human mind.
to understand, control, predict and love.
maybe it is.
for wad i know.
i dont think so.
there are things that just happen magically.
like love.
theres no explanation.
perhaps.

"Vacation" by me.
currently unfinished.
feedbacks will be considered.
lack of inspirations now.
to be continued.
here is goes.

"In the world where light is dim.
The portrait i seek cant be seen.

As the leaf got blown away.
As the water flow, the face cleanse.
The shadow stared in dismay.
Loneliness sets in, the paralzed sense.

Leaving no dirt and tears.
Its all written all over the face.
It traced back the fear.
So fast so sleek, losing the pace.

Chorus:
Its all done now.
Going for a vacation.
Its all gone now.
There goes his anticipation.
Its about time now my girl.
I'm weak, the love i cant suppress.
I should go now Princess.
The oblivion is calling out for my presence."



I hate this song by Secondhand Serenade.
Speak with your tongue tied,
I know that you're tired
But I just want to know,
Where you want to go,
I may be sad, But I'm not weak,
This situation is bleak
And you puffy eyes never lie,
Your tears come from inside.

Until Sunday I'll be waiting for an answer
I guess that yesturday's not good enough for you,
You know that I hate this song,
You know that I hate this song
Because it was written for you

Drown your fears with me
I'm feeling real sorry
Your glossy eyes don't need
The sadness they have seen
But you're way too deep to swim
Back up again
But somehow I can't find
The moment you said goodbye

Until Sunday I'll be waiting for an answer
I guess that yesturday's not good enough for you,
You know that I hate this song,
You know that I hate this song
Because it was written for you

This is becoming a problem
I'm hurting it's unfair
But somehow your words,
The way that I heard are haunting me,
You're under my skin
You're breaking in,
And the tasteless fights that filled our nights
Are starting to cave in,
You're under my skin
You're breaking in
And if Sundays what it takes to prove
I have nothing else to lose

Until Sunday I'll be waiting for an answer
I guess that yesturday's not good enough for you,
You know that I hate this song,
You know that I hate this song
Because it was written for you