Respect

Respect.
Taken from www.dictionary.com.
To feel or show deferential regard for; esteem.
To avoid violation of or interference with: respect the speed limit.
To relate or refer to; concern.

Its something earned.
Not given.
Doesn't mean you are in high position.
Or old in age.
People will give you the respect you desire.
Its your capabilities.
If you're a higher management but you cant do things right.
Do you deserve the respect of being the higher management.
No you dont.
We do give the minimal respect to someone older, high positioned.
But ultimately.
Its still up to them to convince us with their capabilities.
It can also led to some undesired situation.
Some kids nowadays think that being strong and daring would be respected.
Yes in their circle of friends.
Bullying are such childish actions.
Fighting.
What cause do they right for.
Causing physical damage are for the losers.
If you people think that winning in fights and gaining 'territory' are respectful.
Think again.
Stop chasing rainbows and get a life.
So who deserve your respect and who should you respect.
Define them yourselves.

Basicly.
I do give elderly and higher management the minimal respect.
Not to use vulgar against them.
But not to the extend to give in.
Especially when i'm not at fault.
I would make my stand.
Perhaps in a wrong way.
Perhaps its the best way.
No idea.

Song for post.
Welcome to my life by Simple Plan.

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more?
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

No one ever lied straight to your face
And no one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
You never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like, what it's like

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like (what it's like)

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life

Personal

Extended and re-updated on 27/05.
Apologise.
Ytd was getting late to updated a lil.
I'll finish up what i've got to say today.
So yup.


Alright.
Something personal again.
Received couples of comments today regarding i've become more vulgar.
Rather then changed to be more vulgar.
I would say reckless.
I couldn't be bothered about what others think of me now.
For i cant see whats the purpose of having a good impression.
Been thinking about it.
I seriously think.
My mindset have swayed from before.
I seriously.
Cannot be bothered about anything now.
From insulting lecturers to disrespecting course manager.
I seriously think that i am reckless.
I did think about the consequences.
But it doesn't seem to bother me a single bit.
Its like, 'so what?' situation.
I don't care.
So what if i got kicked out of school.
So what if everyone hates me.
So what if i got myself in deep shit.
So what?
I don't know what gotten into me.
Or what cause this thinking.
But i know its stuck into my head now.
Consequences.
I couldn't care.
Results.
I don't bother.
I've changed.
I know it now.
I did.
Who am i now i wonder to myself.
What am i now i am figuring out.
I don't know.
Hay wired.
Twisted up i guess.
He guessed he's dead.
I wonder too.
He wonder too.

Well well.
So i guess cheng's dead.
Kind of in some sense.
perhaps.
man i seriously wonder.
Whats gonna be of me now.
I cant determine whats wrong.
But for one thing i'm sure.
I've changed.
Better or worse.
No idea.
Cant be bothered too.

Well well.
Next week will be my last week at Genki.
Had a tiff with the fucking gay manager.
A loser who cant outtalk me.
What a loser.
Pitiful.
Von said something about respecting.
Well i did.
If i didn't respect him.
I would've used vulgar and shoot him directly.
In stead of insulting him indirectly.
This would be the level i give to someone who is elder then me.
The minimal respect.
Respect is not given.
Its earned.
Being old doesn't mean people have to respect you.
Loser.
And since i've decided to 'toy' him.
Now i will.
Once and for all.
Next thurs he'll be doing closing.
Of which i'm working.
And i'm not going to turn up.
I'll screw him up utterly.
I'll make him suffer.
I apologise if i made any other servers unhappy.
For i've decided to fuck richies upside down.
I'm gonna make him regret.
And thinking about it.
Me and my brother will be quitting next week.
So i'm gonna see how he plan his schedule.
Wasting a food runner.
Left with YQ.
And Benny who at weekend still cmi.
So when theres a weekend where both yq and ben off.
Genki's dead.
For sure i vouch for it.
Loser.
A loser who lost himself at the peak of anger he is.
I'll make him learn his lesson the tough way.
Trust me.
I'm capable of doing so.
And here i'm thinking.
Since thurs i'm not going to turn up for work.
Should i go there and be a customer.
So screw him up.
Well well well.
I wonder.
I'll come to a decision soon.
But i need company ya.
So let the project 'screw richie' start.
His suffering would be my pleasure.
His felony.
My melody.
So be it.

Song for post.
Only One by Yellowcard.
Broken this fragile thing now
And I can't, I can't pick up the pieces
And I've thrown my words all around
But I can't, I can't give you a reason

I feel so broken up (so broken up)
And I give up (I give up)
I just want to tell you so you know

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one that gets me like you do
You are my only, my only one

Made my mistakes, let you down
And I can't, I can't hold on for too long
Ran my whole life in the ground
And I can't, I can't get up when you're gone

And something's breaking up (breaking up)
I feel like giving up (like giving up)
I won't walk out until you know

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one who gets me like you do
You are my only, my only one

Here I go so dishonestly
Leave a note for you my only one
And I know you can see right through me
So let me go and you will find someone

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one, no one like you
You are my only, my only one
My only one
My only one
My only one
You are my only, my only one

Perception:Error

We all have different views.
Different thinking.
And of cause different perception.
Errors.
A good example of perception error would be stereotyping.
People stereotype others.
Race. Culture. Personality.
I dont deny i stereotype people.
Everyone does.
And everyone label someone elses.
But thinking about it.
Who actually gave you the right to insult someone else.
What right do you have in the first place.
Yet ignoring your rights.
We insult and label others.
Over and over again.
Points that are often overlooked.
Because of your experience with that particular group of people.
You tend to stereotype them.
Your past.
Your scars.
You memories.
Your experiences.
All contribute and mould your perception into what it is today.
Theres no wrong theres no right.
For some will see you as right.
Some will see you as wrong.
Final say is still you.
So think about it.
Do you actually have the right to insult other human beings.
Period.

Alright.
Back to my whining.
As i predicted.
Trouble trouble trouble.
Today me and xf went to find my care person and another guy.
well what else could it be.
About the lecture incident and of cause.
My hair.
yea yea yea.
We were approached one by one.
I went in first and they couldn't convince me.
Well. stubborn well.
Then xf went in.
They actually told xf that they couldn't talk sense into me.
Its like a left ear in, head process, useless stuff, right ear out.
Well well well.
Guess i'm to stubborn huh.
Fuck it then.
Who cares anyway.
For i dont.
Who does.
No one knows and understand my perception anyway.
So fuck it.
Consequences.?
Well well well.
Fuck it too.
Wrath?
Lets see and i'll face it.

And yea.
Kept my word.
Its been like so many months since i had my 'smoke-free' day.
Today it is!
I succeeded yup.
Well well well.
Any treats?
(=

Song for post.
Scars by Papa Roach

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And my scars remind me that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

Drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
I'm pissed cause you came around
Why don't you just go home
Cause you channel all your pain
And I can't help you fix yourself
You're making me insane
All I can say is

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And our scars remind us that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel


I tried to help you once
Against my own advice
I saw you going down
But you never realized
That you're drowning in the water
So I offered you my hand
Compassions in my nature
Tonight is our last stand

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And our scars remind us that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

I'm drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
You shouldn't ever come around
Why don't you just go home?
Cause you're drowning in the water
And I tried to grab your hand
And I left my heart open
But you didn't understand
But you didn't understand
Go fix yourself

I can't help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life
I can't help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And our scars remind us that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And our scars remind us that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

Anger Management

Alright.
How do you contain your anger and how do you handle them.
How do others.
Violence?
Keep inside?
Many many ways.
Which is the best.
No idea.
My word would be different situation different medicine yup.
And different people got different liking as how to handle their own matter isn't it.
There are people who fight to vent their anger.
Fighting and hurting others would make them feel better.
Thats my assumption yup.
But theres definately people out there who enjoy huring and damaging others.
Who enjoy killing and torturing.
Sadistics.
There are many who keep their anger inside of them.
I'm one of them.
And i'll pretend nothing happened.
Therefore i'm a good actor. (=
Giving no clue.
For my side.
I keep it for i do not wish to affect others.
I believe some people kept it inside have this reason too.
The want to keep everything to yourself and letting none out.
The mindset of being a burden to others is meaningless.
I understand those feeling.
We hide our emotions.
In the corner somewhere.
Only when alone then it will be taken out.
Its not wrong.
But is it right.
Others might worry.
Then you'll argue that if they know what i'm thinking.
They'll worry more.
Why bother.
So what else can i say.
Its all about understanding between people.
Of their stand and their thoughts.
Think about it.
Some scream and let it out.
Scary.

This is the end of this post.
Words after this are my whinings.
For i've been really down on luck and crap everything isn't going my way.
Vulgars would be used and uninterested party feel free to press the 'X' at the top right corner of this window here.

Here i go!
Fuck it.
Seriously fuck it.
Ytd problems in school with lecturers and tutors.
Heat up 'debating' i would call it.
But actually i totally made a fool and critisized that fucking lecturer.
What a fucking bitch.
And today a teacher called me.
While i'm working so ya.
He called my home so thats why i know.
But weird thing is he didn't say anything to my mom.
Hmmm.
But either way i'm still prepared for a war soon.
Time to put my debating skills to play.
yea yea yea.
Fuck it.
Seriously every sem i would have this kind of fucking problem with lecturers.
Fuck it.
And theres also my hair issue running around my course manager now.
Sooner or later it will get me.
So fuck it too.
So many fucking problems.
Well well well.
Gotta be armed for combat now.
Let my tongue be my weapon and my brain be my gears.
And here today.
Fucking piece of shit.
I broke a fucking PDA at work.
And i will get fucked upside down by my fucking gay manager and most probably have to freaking pay for it.
And there goes my bike.
Damn it.
fuck it.
Here i am quitting smoking to save money for my bike and here comes this money issue which will delay the purchase of my bike.
NOO~~~
My scoooooooooooooter.
Damn.
No fucking shit is ever going in my way.
Ever.
Fucking had enough.
Fucking piece of shitty life.
Fuck it.
And another fuck it is i was doing so well today whole day not smoking.
Rejecting offers and temptations.
Even at work place.
Til i fucking broke the PDA.
Damn it.
there goes my fucking smoke free day.
Damn.
Tomorrow it will be a smoke free day.
I swear with my life on the bet.
Gotta save money for my scooter yup.
Arghhh.
Lime green or checkered for it.
Any suggestions?
Alright enough of my whining.
I apologise.

Song for post.
God must hate me by Simple Plan.

Last night
I just wanted to have fun,
to go out with my friends

I took my dad's car
I never thought he would find out
But I crashed in a wall
Man I'm dead

I guess it's no use,
I'm screwing up every little thing
I ever tried to do
I'm born to lose
Yeah yeah yeah yeah

God must hate me
He CURSED me for eternity
God must hate me
Maybe you should pray for me
I'm breaking down
And you can't save me
I'm stuck in hell
and I wanna go home,
I wanna go home

Last night I had to study for this test
I forgot and man I'm dead
and now my brain is bursting out of, my head
I can't think I can't breath
Once again

I guess it's no use
I'm screwing up
Every little thing I ever tried to do
I'm born to lose
yeah yeah yeah yeah

God must hate me
He CURSED me for eternity
God must hate me
Maybe you should pray for me
I'm breaking down
And you can't save me
I'm stuck in hell
And I wanna go home

So what in the world
Am I supposed to do?
I never did anything to you
So can't you find something else to do?

God must hate me
He CURSED me for eternity
God must hate me
Maybe you should pray for me
I'm breaking down
And you can't save me
I'm stuck in hell and


I wanna go home
(God must hate me) x6
You can't save me
God must hate me now

Trouble

We're not perfect.
We all know that.
And yet people tend to forget about that.
Misunderstanding of stands.
Conflicts.
Resentment.
Trouble.
Mess.
We make mistakes.
We have different thinkings.
Factors causing conflicts and trouble.
Your mistakes, others mistakes.
Who to blame.
Who will take the blame.
When one push the blame to other and other pushes back.
No one admit.
Conflict occurs.
We get to all sorts of trouble with all sorts of people.
I do get into ALOT of trouble and they never stops.
Shall talk about that later.
Why not.
Try to understand each other point and stand.
Don't ignore them.
For it will only make things worse.
Compromise.
Know this well.
In life.
You can never win all the way.
You'll definately lose on the way.
Learn this by heart.
When both party are trying to make their stand and not trying to understand each other's point of view.
Things won't solve.
This is what i know.
You'll know this if you understand my point that no one in this world is the same.
They might be similar in a way or other.
But definately not the same.
Each and everyone of us are unique and special in our own ways.
Understanding would be the first key.
Compromising would be the second.
Well.
Its tough we all know.
For who would not want things to go in their way.
But.
The reality is harsh and ugly.
We got to know it.

Okay for myself today.
Trouble trouble and more trouble.
Crap.
I screwed up with a OB lecturer at the lecture hall.
And i'm gonna expect lots of trouble this time for i think i did a pretty good job critisizing her.
Well.
She just pissed me off.
What to do.
Gonna be prepared for the upcoming battles with the course manager also.
And my hair issue is taking its flight now.
Thus i will too be expecting alot more trouble now.
Battles, RIGHT ON!
well well well.
What to do.
I've just got this 'voicing out' character.
so be it.
I couldn't care much now too.

PS:
Went IKEA today.
The place.
The memories.
Hangs there.
Such beautiful scene.
The old times.
The good times.
How mezmerizing.

Song for post.
Hands down by Dashboard Confession.

Breathe in for luck,
Breathe in so deep,
This air is blessed,
You share with me.
This night is wild,
So calm and dull,
These hearts they race,
From self control.
Your legs are smooth,
As they graze mine,
We're doing fine,
We're doing nothing at all.

My hopes are so high,
That your kiss might kill me.
So won't you kill me,
So I die happy.
My heart is yours to fill or burst,
To break or bury,
Or wear as jewelery,
Which ever you prefer.

The words are hushed lets not get busted;
Just lay entwined here, undiscovered.
Safe in here from all the stupid questions.
"Hey did you get some?"
Man, that is so dumb.
Stay quiet, stay near, stay close they can't hear...
So we can get some.

My hopes are so high that your kiss might kill me.
So won't you kill me, so I die happy.
My heart is yours to fill or burst,
To break or bury, or wear as jewelery,
Which ever you prefer.

Hands down this is the best day I can ever remember,
I'll always remember the sound of the stereo,
The dim of the soft lights,
The scent of your hair that you twirled in your fingers
And the time on the clock when we realized it's so late
And this walk that we shared together.
The streets were wet
And the gate was locked so I jumped it,
And I let you in.
And you stood at your door with your hands on my waist
And you kissed me like you meant it.
And I knew that you meant it,
That you meant it,
That you meant it,
And I knew,
That you meant it,
That you meant it.

Memories

Memories.
Something that will hang by you.
In you head.
And once in a while.
Unknowingly you'll take out and view the pictures you caught before.
The accidents.
The incidents.
The past.
The memories.
Your loved ones.
Your ex lovers.
Your old friends.
Your old you.
Something that cannot come back.
You store them inside.
People yearn to turn back time.
But the moment you yearn to turn back time.
You regret your life.
Why would you want to regret?
In stead of wasting time thinking and pulled down by the past.
Why not make it an effort to move on and be happy.
People around would yearn for that for you as well i believe.
We all have memories.
But being pulled down by them and dragged down isn't good.
Look into the future.
Look at the bright side.
Learn to let go.
Time is constantly moving.
So should we.
But our memories still stay.
Its alright to look back, but never turn back.
Try to comprehand that yup.

All the good times.
All the bad times.
We've all been through.
I've been through my best times with my brothers my lovers.
I've been through the worst with them as well.
When i missed my Add maths paper, they were there for me.
I'm glad.
Now i dont regret missing it.
For now i've found myself in a bunch of die-hard brotherhood.
I'm glad of what i have.
I don't deny i do regrets sometimes.
I used to regret missing my add maths paper.
I used to regret doing some actions and making some decisions in life.
But we gotta learn.
To let go that is.
Something every gotta learn.
Once again.
Its alright to look back, but never turn back.

"The most beautiful of everything lies in the memories.
But relying too much on it will devour you."
By Lucïlle™

Relationship:BGR

yeap.
Some stuff startled and inspired me to have this topic.
I posted on this topic before but this would be focusing on BGR yup.
Puppy love.
Spouse.
Infatuations.
Yups.
More or less people of my age should have a r/s before i suppose so.
Outcome?
More to heartaches.
Am i wrong to say that.
I've seen and been through.
Couple of minutes is enough to turn from smiles to frowns.
Scary huh.
So back to point.
What do you want in a r/s.
Love.
Sex.
Devotion.
Company.
Perhaps.
Some only want sex in r/s.
Those pitiful bastards.
I despise.
Taking advantage of other peoples' feeling.
Toying them.
Ugly humans.

Love.
Whats love.
I don't know it.
And i'm still figuring that out.
Perhaps you'll help me.
Hah.
So think about it.
What do you look for in a r/s.
Go for it.
If you think its right.

Some say forever.
Some say never.
I love you forever.
I will never let you go.
To me personally.
I find those sentence very childish and unrealistic.
For i'm a very logical and realistic person.
I dont believe in never, forever and impossible.
I use lifetime.
'Til death do us apart'
This is what people should use.
But use wisely.
Don't use it to cheat people.
To lie.
For its a very powerful phrase.
Very meaningful indeed.
So kids, stop catching rainbow and get a life alright.
Its time to grow up and learn.

I've seen.
How people broke up.
How people patch up.
I've seen.
How torn people are.
How hurt they are.
I've seen.
How lovely they are.
How devoted they are.
I admit.
I admire them.
I'm jealous.
Some say.
Love is a two bladed sword.
I guess its true somehow.
It can kill you.
And it can help you and protect you.

Some say.
Love is like an antique vase.
Its hard to find.
But breaks easily.
I object.
For i believe.
Yes its hard to find.
But i believe that once its found.
It will not break.
For if its found.
You'll protect it with whatever you have.
Am i right to say that.

So guys, do some soul searching.
Determine what do you yearn for in a r/s.
Figure that out.
To what extend are you willing to give up to give in.
It would be how much do you love that someone you have.
Think about it.
I hope it helps though.

PS:
Frankly speaking.
Personally.
I dont know what do i look for in a r/s.
Perhaps.
You dont need a reason to be in one.
Perhaps.
Its your yearn for one.
But i don't know.
I no longer know.
I thought i used to know everything.
But i realised i know nothing.
I thought i used to have everything.
But i realised i have nothing.
I don't deny.
I yearn for a r/s.
I don't deny.
But then again.
My experience tells me.
Others are better off without me.
I don't know whats wrong.
Somehow.
In r/s things won't go well for me.
In addition of i have no idea what to look for in a r/s.
I realise.
Perhaps i would be better off alone.
Perhaps.
I fear r/s.
I don't know.
But somehow its just something not for me.
After so much.

I think.
I'm a murderer.
I killed someone.
I killed myself.
Somehow.
I wonder.
Set me free.
From this ugly humanity.
For i doubt my existance.

Song for post.
I've posted this before.
But this is different.
Its dedicated to two person.
Though i hope they know who they are.
And you have my best wishes.
Though i've wished you before.
I hope for the best for you.
All the best.
Live well.
Be happy.
Stay happy. (=
And actually.
All the songs i post have a purpose.
They are songs which describe my feelings best.

Your own disaster by Taking back sunday.

Just think of this and me
As just a few of the many things
To lie around,
To clutter up your shelves
And I wish you weren't worth the wait
Cause there are some things
That I'd like to say to you

And I don't think that you know
What you've been missing
Cause I don't think that you know
What you've been missing

And I dare you to forget
The marks you left across my neck
From those nights when we were both found at our best
Now I could make this obvious and you,
You could deny me
All in one breath
You could shrug me off your shoulders

And I don't think that you know
What you've been missing
Cause I don't think that you know
What you've been missing
And I don't think that you know
Said I don't think that you know
Said I don't think that you know
What you've been missing

Hey lush, have fun
It's the weekend
Hey lush, have fun
Hey lush, have fun
It's the weekend
Hey lush, have fun
(no I don't think that you know
what you've been missing)
Hey lush, have fun
It's the weekend
(no I don't think that you know
what you've been missing)
Hey lush, have fun
(no I don't think that you know
what you've been missing)
Hey lush, have fun
It's the weekend
(no I don't think that you know
what you've been missing)
Hey lush, have fun
[forget me, it's that simple]
(no I don't think that you know
what you've been missing)
Hey lush, have fun
[forget me, it's that simple]
It's the weekend
(no I don't think that you know
What you've been missing)
[forget me it's that simple]
(no I don't think that you know
what you've been missing)
Hey lush, have fun
[forget me it's that simple]
It's the weekend
[forget me it's that simple]
(no I don't think that you know
what you've been missing)
Hey lush, have fun
[forget me it's that simple]
Hey lush, have fun
[forget me it's that simple]
[just forget me it's that simple]
[just forget me it's that simple]
[just forget me it's that simple]
[just forget me it's that simple]
[just forget me it's that simple]
[just forget me it's that simple]
[just forget me it's that simple]
[just forget me it's that simple]
[just forget me it's that simple]
[just forget me it's that simple]
just forget me, it's that simple

Hatred

Hatred.
Something every soul possesses.
Detest.
Hate.
Distrust.
All the different levels of hate.
Its the reason why people fight.
Why we have wars.
And yet.
Something we cant eradicate.
Its imprinted into us.
Everyone.
Its sad.
Its bad.
But theres always anger management.
How would you resolve your conflict.
Violence?
Reason out?
Peace?
Its been said.
Violence cant solve anything.
Yet its still commonly practiced.
Thats why i said human should not exist.
When things could be resolved peacefully.
They resort to such unforgiven solutions.
Aren't they pathetic.
Aren't we pathetic.
Sometimes i pity myself being a human.
A same being with those who kill and maim others.
Such slaughter.
Thus.
I've taken a liking.
To death.
Of humans.
Their death.
I love.
Its true.
There are kind souls out there.
But then.
They still possess hatred.
No one is perfect.
Yet no one understand this point.
I admit i don't as well.
I despise people.
People who make use of others to attain their wants and needs.
People who despise others of their natural flaws like being handicap.
People who thinking over highly of themselves.
People who gives up easily.
They shouldn't exist.
They shouldn't be catagorized under 'human beings'
And yet.
We cant do anything about it.
Coming back to point.
How would you resolve your conflicts.
Compromise?
Perhaps.
But how much are you willing to compromise.
Peace talks?
Its about the same as compromising.
Theres a limit to it.
Perhaps.
Its that limit that results in wars, fights and slaughtering.
How do i resolve.
Practically.
I've got good temper.
But i can get really nasty.
I wont damage a person physically.
I kill them mentally.
For i see no point attacking people as it will only get yourself in more trouble and eventually the wounds will recover.
Pointless.
Possessing ability to maim their confidence.
I make them despise themself.
I make them wonder they they exist.
I trample on their pride.
I ruin their faith.
And now someone is really getting on my nerves.
David.
If you're reading this.
Of which i doubt you will.
Watch your actions.
For stepping on my tail will cost you everything.
This is what i'm capable of.
I might have a good temper.
Maybe not.
But what i'm capable of.
I don't know the limits.
I'm pretty scary huh.
Stray then.
Keep your distance.
So whats your say now.
Resolving conflicts.
Taking control of your anger, hatred.
Ruin them. Ruin you.
Forgive and forget.
Easy said.
Well said.
But how many can attain.
Saying and doing is two different story.
Such bullshit.
I hate.

PS.
Come to think of it.
Somehow.
I've become something i've always hated in someway.
I wonder what is becoming of me.
Frankly speaking.
Even i myself have no idea of whats going on sometimes.
I wonder why am i thinking this way.
Why am i behaving this way.
I cant figure out.
But what i know it.
Everything i ever said.
Everything that i'm doing.
Theres a reason behind them.
A purpose.
To stir.
To calm.
To stray.
To remove.
Who am i now.
What am i now.
I wonder.

Song for post.
I have become something i've always hated by Saosin.
Holy eyes bring back one
Never if you only trust your separation
I believe and then
I'll try to give in
Is one fall already bad?
Seems far, but it's true

Whoever told you that
We will find a way to be this way
It's true, whoever told you that
Its fine to walk right outta control
It's true, whoever told you that
Thats fine I hope the best for you
It's true, whoever told you that
We try the best to be the best but look what you've done

We are respiratory
We take violence in stride
We are respiratory
We are never to fall

We are the only story, intriguing myth
We told it twice before and I
I believe and then
I'll try to give in
We owe the attention for
Seems far, but it's true

Whoever told you that
We will find a way to be this way
It's true, whoever told you that
Its fine to walk right outta control
It's true, whoever told you that
Thats fine I hope the best for you
It's true, whoever told you that
We try the best to be the best but look what you've done

We are respiratory
We take violence in stride
We are respiratory
We are never to fall

Motivation

I've been thinking about it.
Why am i so introvert when it comes to life death stuff and extrovert when it comes to any other things.
So perhaps.
I don't have the motivation.
To live well and keep alive.
Motivation.
A force that will allow any humans to push themself.
Something that can only be felt.
and known.
For you to study.
For you to rest.
For you to stay happy.
And to live.
Your families.
Your friends.
Your responsibilities.
Their importance.
Your presence.
Why are you studying.
Why are you living.
Cause you want to attain something.
A goal.
A dream.
Or something you cant let go.
Something that is holding you back and keeps you on the run.
Different people got different views and perception.
Whats yours.
Whats mine.
I wonder.
Nothings holding me back.
Theres nothing i cant let go.
Thats what i've come to a realization.
Perhaps i'm too complicated.
So complicated that sometimes i wonder what i am.
Who i am.
Thus i will not expect anyone to comprehand this.
And i will not allow anyone to.
For the existance of holding me back will not appear.
Everyone got their life.
Yet its affected and affecting others.
How amazing.
Independence.
No human could live on their own.
But what i believe.
Impossible is just an excuse.
Excuse to run away.
Its true isn't it.
For nothing is perfect.
For there is an end to every beggining.
But the end is the begginging of another.
The beggining is also the end of the other.
How amazing things can be.

So i've come to a conclusion myself.
I'm this way because i lack of motivation.
Purpose.
And any other things to keep anyone going.
Perhaps its my can't be bothered attitude.
I wonder.
Bothering too much will be so troublesome at times.
Why bother.
Like i said.
Being a burden is not my cup of tea.
Avoidence is always a better way out for me.
Excuse you might say it.
But i'm moulded this way.
Such tuning.
I love.
Being frank.
Why would someone else be a burden of the other.
Whats the point.
To cause them have more things to worry for.
Whats the purpose.
I cant see.
I cant perceive.
This is my perception perhaps.
For i know.
What is tomorrow never come theory.
Perhaps thats what made me.
Like i said.
We never know when we'll die.
Accidents and stuff are unexpected.
Having so many things to worry for and having to many people worrying for you.
And you die the next moment.
Whats the point.
I cant perceive.
Perhaps someone would enlighten me.
I don't see the point trying so hard to live when you will die eventually.
I believed.
As long as you're not a burden or pillar to anyone.
Your death doesn't matter.
Plus.
Even if you die.
The world continues turning.
Nothing stops.
The clock ticks on.
People move on.
You move on.
Eventually.
Life.
How amazing.
Such contradictions.
How profound.
Period.

P.S:
Things are better this way.
Smoother sail for you.
What you claimed.
What i claimed.
I believed mine.
And i'm sure of it now.
Things are easier for you.

Song for post.
Vindicated by Dashboard Confessional.
Hope dangles on a string
Like slow spinning redemption
Winding in and winding out
The shine of it has caught my eye

And roped me in
So, mesmerizing, so hypnotizing,
I am captivated, I am

Vindicated
I am selfish
I am wrong
I am right
I swear I'm right
Swear I knew it all along
And I am flawed, but I am cleaning up so well
I am seeing in me now the things you swore you saw yourself

So clear
Like the diamond in your ring
Cut to mirror your intention
Oversized and overwhelmed
The shine of which has caught my eye
And rendered me
So isolated, so motivated
I am certain now that I am

Vindicated
I am selfish
I am wrong
I am right
I swear I'm right
Swear I knew it all along
And I am flawed, but I am cleaning up so well
I am seeing in me now the things you swore you saw yourself

So turn
up the corners of your lips
Part them and feel my finger tips
Trace the moment for forever

Defense is paper thin
Just one touch and I'll be in
Too deep now to ever swim against the current
So let me slip away
So let me slip away
So let me slip away
So let me slip against the current
So let me slip away
So let me slip away
So let me slip away
So let me slip away

Vindicated
I am selfish
I am wrong
I am right
I swear I'm right
Swear I knew it all along
And I am flawed, but I am cleaning up so well
I am seeing in me now the things you swore you saw yourself

Like hope
dangles on a string
Like slow spinning redemption...

Obstacles

No life is smooth sailing.
The storm.
The rain.
The unexpected disasters.
Stepping stones in life.
The obstacles who will get in your way.
Give up.
Look for other way.
Or overcome.
What will be your decisions.
Perhaps different situations different solutions?
Possible.
But lets talk generally.
What kind of person you think you are.
Do you face problems head on.
Or would you just run away.
When problems occur.
You would turn to something else.
If you happen to face the problem.
How do you do it.
do you just rush into things?
just desperately wanna get it over and done with?
its not wrong.
just tat perhaps the results wouldn't turn out the way you wanted.
Of cause.
who would not want that to happen right.
Is it hard.
To just think of all the possible solutions and apply the most applicable one.
I understand there are situations where you have time restrictions.
Yes at that point of time your wouldn't have much choice.
No one would blame you.
Those who will.
Are people who are not understanding and wishes to push the blame to someone else's.
how pitiful.
Dont give up.
Perservere.
Stay put.
Hold on.
After every rain comes a rainbow.
After every catastrophe comes a paradise.
You give some you take some.
Look on the bright side of life.

And ytd i was interviewing some of my friends regarding their purpose in life.
I found out something.
Its impossible to live a life without purpose.
I take back my words.
Those who are without 'purpose'.
Their purpose in life is to look for 'purpose in life'
I hope you get what i mean though.
A little complicated but i'm sure you can comprehand them.

PS:
I still don't get it what human beings exist on earth itself.
For earth has no need for them.
For we are nothing but disaster.
For we only cause destruction.


Dear Readers.
I've got a request.
Don't mind sending me an email answering couple of questions.
-Whats your purpose in life.
-Why do human exist in this world. Whats your say.
-What do you fear
-Anything you wish to say to me regarding anything, your thoughts and stuff.
Your information would be kept confidential.
You have my words.
My email.
lucille89_@hotmail.com
Thanks a million.

Song for post.
The Last Song. By All American Rejects.
This may be the last thing that I write for long
Can you hear me smiling when I sing this song?
For you and only you

As I leave will you be someone to say good-bye?
As I leave will you be someone to wipe your eye?
My foot is out the door and you can't stop me now

You wanted the best
It wasn't me
Will you give it back?
Now I'll take the lead
When there's no more room to make it grow
I'll see you again
You'll pretend you're naive
Is this what you want?
Is this what you need?
How you end up? Let me know

As I go remember all the simple things you know
My mind is just a crutch and I still hope
That you will miss me when I'm gone
This is the last song

The hearts start breaking as the year is gone
The dream's beginning and the time rolls on
It seems so surreal
And now I sing it
Somehow I knew that it would be this way
Somehow I knew that it would slowly fade
Now I am gone
Just try and stop me now

You wanted the best
It wasn't me
Will you give it back?
Now I'll take the lead
When there's no more room to make it grow
I'll see you again
You'll pretend you're naive
Is this what you want?
Is this what you need?
How you end up? Let me know

As I go remember all the simple things you know
My mind is just a crutch and I still hope
That you will miss me when I'm gone
This is the last song

Will you need me now
You'll find a way somehow
You wanted to
I want it too

As I go remember all the simple things you know
My mind is just a crutch and I still hope
That you will miss me when I'm gone
This is the last song

As I go remember all the simple things you know
My mind is just a crutch and I still hope
That you will miss me when I'm gone
This is the last song

Perception

Perception.
Is a process of which we define or interpret something or someone.
Each and everyone of us define things differently.
From each and every angle we see everything.
We get a different output.
The sides.
Life.
What do you see life as.
A journey.
A begginning.
An End.
Theres no right.
There no wrong.
You have your own right.
To live your life.
For you're solely responsible for the outcome.
And you're accounted for the input.
And of cause with interferences.
External factors to be considered.
To be affected or not.
Its still within your choice.
For me.
I don't.
For the barrier is not something anyone could possibly understand.
Not something any living soul can comprehand.
Thus no one will be able to determine the antidote and break it and affect.
And i will not allow it.
Life.
Death.
Its just a thin line.
Truth.
Lies.
Blurred line.
How would you define them.
How would you perceive it.
A murderer.
What do you see him as.
But what if he kill to save someone else importannt.
Would your perception change.
But the result is still the same.
He is still a murderer.
My point.
There are times.
Where right or wrong.
Are self defined.
Some think you're right.
Some think you're wrong.
But who has the final say.
You.

PS:
This uproar is getting on my nerves.
If this ain't going to stop.
Don't be surprise if i post about critisizing christianity.
Don't be surprise if i post something real nasty.
For don't doubt my ability.

If you're so smart.
Why don't you just get a life and stop commenting about what i'm doing with my life.
No one asked you to comment on my life.
Who gave you the right.
I don't sympathy myself.
I'm proud.
So stop getting on my nerves and stepping on my head.
Before i go nasty.

I apologise.
For i can no longer see the purpose of saying anything.
Knowing and being kept in dark makes no difference.
The hopes are lost.
Long ago.
Decisions are made.
Stands are decided.
He's dead.
He once said.
He's gone for good.
Perhaps this is what he meant.
Into the oblivion.
We have no idea what has become of him.
Neither do i.
But this is reality.
Facing the harsh reality is what it is.
Prepared for the hardest possible damage.
Is what he is learning.
Overcoming everything.
The final level.
Death.

Change: Me

Environment change.
People adapt.
I adapt.
Time flies.
People grow.
I grow.
I age.
I die.
The cycle.
Peer.
Environment.
Not missing out the most important component.
Time.
The ingredients for change.

Perhaps.
I've change.
No idea.
But for what i know.
I dont.
I would argue.
This is my inner self.
Someone who has been sleeping for ages.
Comparing me.
Who have lose motivation to live.
Those are people stuck with things they cant let go.
But for me.
Nothing is holding me back.
Nothing.
And someone out there struggling to live.
How childish.
Why not compare yourself with the natives.
Eat tree barks and stuff.
Pitiful comments.
I sympathise.
Trying hard to escape death.
Such futile actions.
Effortless tries.
How pathetic.
Stupid you might call me.
I wouldn't care.
For i know it myself i am not.

I used to portray myself.
As someone.
Who is simple.
Ra-ra type.
But who dares claim.
To claim to know me.
Well and inside out.
Who dare.
I doubt there is any.
For i know i am far more complicated that your brain can ever comprehand.
All the thoughts running across my head.
All the things i perceive differently.
Who knows what i'm thinking.
Who knows what i know.
No one does.
When i'm out.
I'm normal.
When i'm alone.
I'm like another being.
Something which shed its skin and reborn.
Someone who is living by the harshest reality possible.
Someone who has attain a new level of realization of life and death.
Split personality perhaps.
No idea.
Scary huh.
Special perhaps.
So don't doubt my actions.
Regret is something i wouldn't know.
Don't bother teaching me.
For i will not learn.
Fear me.
Detest me.
Hate me.
Forsake me.
For i'm the fallen one myself.
But mark my words.
No matter what has become of me.
I will not be a burden to anyone.
Period.

Pupose

Theres a purpose to everything.
Everything you do.
Everything i do.
Everything we do.
For fun.
For thrill.
For exitement.
For trust.
Theres a purpose for everything that happened.
Everything exist and occur for a reason, a purpose.
It keeps the world going.
Whats your purpose of living.
Whats their purpose in doing whatever thing.
Questions.
Why are we living.
Why do things turn out this way.
Why do we hate.
Why do we love.
Why do you even exist.
Why are you still living.
Why aren't you dead.
Why are other people living.
Some live for fun.
Some live for someone else.
Some live for love.
Some live for responsibilities.
Some live for hate.
For me.
I'm still here cause i'm unable to die.
For which i yearn for.
Thus i am here unable to give a damn to anything thing.
So don't try me.
Trust me.
Purpose.
There are people who do things purely for the sake of helping.
While some do for the sake of other sly purpose.
Example.
Whats the purpose of showing god helped some people to make big bucks.
Whats the purpose.
Its obvious thats to convince them to donate more.
As if god really exist.
People will donate willingly.
Without even showing to the members and stuff.
Sly.
I despise.
I hate.
pitiful, pathetic.
Everyone do something for a purpose.
Its surface or beneath.
You decide.

PS:
Nothing can stop me.
Even if i'm jailed.
My mindset wouldn't change.
My way of life wouldn't move.
Cause I'm numb.
For this is who i am.
Effortless Tries.
How wasteful.

Song for post.
The Innocent by Good Charlotte
The start of armageddon
It was just another day
We all saw the news, nothing to say
So many friends are missing
And family members gone
So we all pray that god help them be strong

And now we stand together
Remembering that day
The lives we live will never be the same

And we don't know why
The innocent die
Will this world ever find a way to change?
And we don't know why
But we know it's not right
Don't know why so many had to die
Don't know why so many had to die

Hate is turn to others
For their religion or their skin
But hate can't solve the problem it began
Everyone is angry
People are afraid
No one knows what decisions will be made

And we don't know why
The innocent die
Will this world ever find a way to change?
And we don't know why
But we know it's not right
Don't know why so many had to die
Don't know why so many had to die

And we don't know why (don't know why)
The innocent die (don't know why)
Will this world ever find a way to change?
And we don't know why (don't know why)
But we know it's not right (don't know why)
Will any of us ever be the same
Will any of this ever be the same

I don't know why
The innocent die
Will any of us ever be the same
Will any of this ever be the same

Happiness

Happiness.
The self defined unseen.
Self-defined.
Definately.
Someone can be happy without money and with loyal friends.
Someone else can be happy being a fuck rich ass without friends.
They can be equally happy.
But geared with different equipment.
Its what you want vs what you need.
Detemine your path of life.
Determine your goals.
Determine your wants.
Determine your needs.
Determine your worth.
Determine your happiness.
Which way would you pick.
What life would you want.
Which path would you head.
Emotions.
How magical.

Ps:
I'm so obsessed with death now.
I wonder.
How i will die.
What comes after next.
I yearn for the outcome.
Consumed by curiosity.
I love.

Song for post.
The Last Song by The All-American Rejects.
This may be the last thing that I write for long
Can you hear me smiling when I sing this song?
For you and only you

As I leave will you be someone to say good-bye?
As I leave will you be someone to wipe your eye?
My foot is out the door and you can't stop me now

You wanted the best
It wasn't me
Will you give it back?
Now I'll take the lead
When there's no more room to make it grow
I'll see you again
You'll pretend you're naive
Is this what you want?
Is this what you need?
How you end up? Let me know

As I go remember all the simple things you know
My mind is just a crutch and I still hope
That you will miss me when I'm gone
This is the last song

The hearts start breaking as the year is gone
The dream's beginning and the time rolls on
It seems so surreal
And now I sing it
Somehow I knew that it would be this way
Somehow I knew that it would slowly fade
Now I am gone
Just try and stop me now

You wanted the best
It wasn't me
Will you give it back?
Now I'll take the lead
When there's no more room to make it grow
I'll see you again
You'll pretend you're naive
Is this what you want?
Is this what you need?
How you end up? Let me know

As I go remember all the simple things you know
My mind is just a crutch and I still hope
That you will miss me when I'm gone
This is the last song

Will you need me now
You'll find a way somehow
You wanted to
I want it too

As I go remember all the simple things you know
My mind is just a crutch and I still hope
That you will miss me when I'm gone
This is the last song

As I go remember all the simple things you know
My mind is just a crutch and I still hope
That you will miss me when I'm gone
This is the last song

Belief

Be warned.
This post might trigger your anger.
But there ain't anything you can do.
For this is my blog.
Leave if you want to.
This post would be more of my own perception.
No offence.

Belief.
There are many beliefs in this world.
Christianity, Buddism and others.
God.
I don't believe its existance.
It. No he. No she or 'You' But IT.
For its non existance.
God is just something.
Something for the light hearted.
Something to motivate yourself.
For those who are not confident in their capabilities.
For those weak hearted.
Weaklings.
I'll give you an example.
When the person does badly in his exam.
He pray to 'god'.
For he knows that 'god' will assist him.
He will motivate himself.
He will work hard.
He will study.
Thus he will do better.
Then this would be the deception of the perception.
For those light and weak hearted.
Illusions. Deception.
How ugly.
Another thing to take note of.
If people were to really to believe in god.
Would people be forced to ask people to join them.
Example.
City Harvest Church 'people' are actually given a quota to 'recruit' new members.
If you're really good.
Is there a need for that.
Pathetic.
Pitiful.
I despise.
Allowing something which doesn't exist to control your life.
Be ashamed.
The corrupted ones.
Ugly humans.
Loathsome belief.
Foul beings.
The fallen ones.
Blinded souls.

What i believe.
I believe in myself.
I believe in my capabilities.
I believe in luck. Not miracles.
I believe in coincidence. Not fate.
For in the end.
You are accounted for your life.
You take charge of your decisions.
Not them.
Not it.
Its you.

Song for this post.
Zombie by The Cranberries.
Another head hangs lowly,
Child is slowly taken.
And the violence caused such silence,
Who are we mistaken?

But you see, it's not me, it's not my family.
In your head, in your head they are fighting,
With their tanks and their bombs,
And their bombs and their guns.
In your head, in your head, they are crying...

In your head, in your head,
Zombie, zombie, zombie,
Hey, hey, hey. What's in your head,
In your head,
Zombie, zombie, zombie?
Hey, hey, hey, hey, oh, dou, dou, dou, dou, dou...

Another mother's breakin',
Heart is taking over.
When the violence causes silence,
We must be mistaken.

It's the same old theme since nineteen-sixteen.
In your head, in your head they're still fighting,
With their tanks and their bombs,
And their bombs and their guns.
In your head, in your head, they are dying...

In your head, in your head,
Zombie, zombie, zombie,
Hey, hey, hey. What's in your head,
In your head,
Zombie, zombie, zombie?
Hey, hey, hey, hey, oh, oh, oh,
Oh, oh, oh, oh, hey, oh, ya, ya-a...

Fairness

Fairness
Fairness definition taken from www.dictionary.com
- free from bias, dishonesty, or injustice: a fair decision; a fair judge

Frankly speaking.
Whats fair in this world.
No matter what decisions you make.
No matter what route you take.
It might be fair for one.
Will it be fair for all.
In your stand.
You might think its fair.
But have you ever put yourself in others shoe.
How would others felt.
How would others think.
How would you hurt the others.
How would you benefit.
Sacrifice.
Not fairness.
Self satisfaction.
Greed.
Ugly Human nature.
Theres no complete fairness in this world.
I don’t believe in you reap what you sow.
If it exist.
Good people won’t die early.
Bad people won’t go Scott-free.
So whats it gonna be.
Like I said.
You take some.
You definitely gotta give some.
A price to pay for another.
It’s the cycle no one could escape.

If there is fairness in this world.
People would be born equally.
People would be treated equally.
There wouldn’t be discrimination.
People will not hurt others.
Emotionally.
Physically.
Mentally.
Wars won’t exist.
Quarrel won’t occurs.
Fights will cease.
Hatred will not be inside the dictionary.
So one day.
Before you say you’re fair.
Think about it.
Before saying anything.
For words are like water.
You can’t possibly take them back once done.
Period.

Song for this post.
Your Own Disaster by Taking Back Sunday
Just think of this and me
As just a few of the many things
To lie around,
To clutter up your shelves
And I wish you weren't worth the wait
Cause there are some things
That I'd like to say to you

And I don't think that you know
What you've been missing
Cause I don't think that you know
What you've been missing

And I dare you to forget
The marks you left across my neck
From those nights when we were both found at our best
Now I could make this obvious and you,
You could deny me
All in one breath
You could shrug me off your shoulders

And I don't think that you know
What you've been missing
Cause I don't think that you know
What you've been missing
And I don't think that you know
Said I don't think that you know
Said I don't think that you know
What you've been missing

Hey lush, have fun
It's the weekend
Hey lush, have fun
hey lush, have fun
it's the weekend
hey lush, have fun
(no I don't think that you know
what you've been missing)
hey lush, have fun
it's the weekend
(no I don't think that you know
what you've been missing)
hey lush, have fun
(no I don't think that you know
what you've been missing)
hey lush, have fun
it's the weekend
(no I don't think that you know
what you've been missing)
hey lush, have fun
[forget me, it's that simple]
(no I don't think that you know
what you've been missing)
hey lush, have fun
[forget me, it's that simple]
it's the weekend
(no I don't think that you know
what you've been missing)
[forget me it's that simple]
(no I don't think that you know
what you've been missing)
hey lush, have fun
[forget me it's that simple]
it's the weekend
[forget me it's that simple]
(no I don't think that you know
what you've been missing)
hey lush, have fun
[forget me it's that simple]
hey lush, have fun
[forget me it's that simple]
[just forget me it's that simple]
[just forget me it's that simple]
[just forget me it's that simple]
[just forget me it's that simple]
[just forget me it's that simple]
[just forget me it's that simple]
[just forget me it's that simple]
[just forget me it's that simple]
[just forget me it's that simple]
[just forget me it's that simple]
just forget me, it's that simple

Ps:
I miss.
The Subby.
The Cookies.
The Hamsters.
The Puppies.
The Long Walk.
My Indecent Obsession.
Death.
Uncomprehendable Living Worth.
I don’t understand.

Death

First things first.
A very sincere apology for not blogging recently.
Been really busy with ELF, School and Genki.
Averaging out only about 4 hours sleep per day.
So bear with me alright.
My bad.

Anyway topic I’m gonna talk about would be death.
Something inevitable.
Something we cant reject nor resist.
Something we’ll definitely end up.
And go through.
Since you’ll definitely going to face the music.
Why fear it.
Face it.

Who knows when you’ll die.
Perhaps I’ll die tomorrow.
Or perhaps next year.
I wouldn’t know.
So do you.
Who knows when will you die.
Some does though.
Those who contracted terminal diseases.
Talk about that later.
For now lets keep to those who don’t know when they’ll go.
When, where, how will we die.
No idea.
Why bother anyway.
Since you have no idea when would you die.
I bet no one would want to die with regrets right.
You would like to do something you always wanted to.
To confess.
To be loved.
To love.
To be happy.
Theres hell lot of stuff in your ‘life to-do’ list isn’t it.
Why are you hesitating.
Whats keeping you back.
Fear?
The fear of rejection?
The fear of failing?
Its all about risking.
I said before.
Life is about risking isn’t it.
You win some.
You lose some.
It’s the way of life.
Be it you like it or not.
That’s how things gotta be for everyone.
So whats the conclusion I ask.
You decide.

Coming up next.
For those who know when they’ll die.
Terminal disease.
The common cause.
Its scary to know when you will die.
For those who don’t.
Just imagine.
Try.
Its hard.
But its harder for them.
Living yet knowing your life is ending.
I cant imagine it myself.
But for what I know.
I would live my life to the fullest ever.
I would do everything I wanted to.
Whats your case.
Whats your decision.
Would you waste your life away.
Probing about your upcoming death.
Or would you live it to the fullest.
Its your life.
Its your choice.
I have no say.
Period.

A song for you people.
Meaningful.
Kind of Perfect by Armor For Sleep.
Can I just be something
somewhere in your room
that you won't notice
maybe I'll be paper
or books thrown on your floor
move me when you want to
I'll live where you put me
in your vcr
if I become a cassete
or on top of your computer
if that's where I would fit
then so be it
but things can't be perfect
all the time that I know
sometimes we just have to let some things go
I will not say one word
I'll just hang around
I won't annoy you at all
when you move out I'll stay
until I'm thrown away
but then it won't matter
but things can't be perfect
all the time that I know
sometimes we just have to let some things go
Because things cant be perfect
all the time, that I know
Sometimes we just have to let some things go
I promise to start now (to stop now)
I promise to start now (to stop now)
but things cant be perfect
All the time that I know
Sometimes we just have to let some things go
things cant be perfect
all the time that i know
sometimes we just have to let some things go
letting go is my life
I'll be on my way